Sorry about my absence from... well everything, of late. Everything sort of got on top of me. Sometimes this happens.
Oh, my old friend My anxiety. Sometimes it out stays its welcome and makes itself a little too friendly. And sometimes its darn right sleazy, hangs around like bad breath and simply refuses to leave. Harrumph.
It means that sometimes I find myself at the station, late, on my way to work. It was sunny and a lovely old lady said to me 'Oh isn't the sunshine lovely' and I nearly sobbed on her shoulder because, yes, the sunshine was so lovely that morning. A little tear did manage to escape from the corner of my eye on the train to work. I know its bad when I cry about old ladies.
It means that sometimes I feel a bit like this...
and this
and this
and this.
(Its a music video by Zero 7. This is 'stress' in video form- but its not too horrid. It ends with wings- watch it and see.)
and when I do feel like this, some things have to give.
I'm trying to remember this:
So, bear with me whilst I grapple with my sanity and cry about old ladies being lovely and wish there were 2 of me and try to catch up on sleep and fill out scary application forms and prepare for interviews and wonder why I cant focus on anything for longer than 5 seconds and clean my neglected house and nurse my poorly mister who has food poisoning (I know- talk about timing, poor thing) and try and do a much needed food shop and all those other domestic things that demand ones attention from time to time.
Normal blogging will resume soon, with vengeance.
You'll see.
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Hannah, you sound so down :(
ReplyDeleteHope you feel better soon and hope mister does too. *massive hugs to you*
Great images though :)
x
Oh poor you! I know the feeling and when uber stressed I cry at anything, really anything. Hope everything will turn out really good for you and poor mister, food poisoning is no fun at all. Take care.
ReplyDeleteps i love the scrabble tile picture. i'm quite fond of scrabble!
big hugs lady, hope you feel calmer soon. I suggest tidying first, then it wont distract you when you're trying to look after mister, or fill out applications. good luck with that also :) xx
ReplyDeleteOh poor Hannah. I have been feeling like this for months and am just coming out the other side now. You are such a creative and sparkly blogger and that must be the essence (spelling!) of you...so fear not, the sparkle will return, we just need to feel a bit of dark sometimes so that we value the light. x
ReplyDeleteThanks guys. Things are in fact ok, just had an insane few weeks which has knocked me a bit. Thanks everyone for your lovely comments! Mister on the mend too. X
ReplyDeleteOh sweetheart, I hope everything is sorting itself out. It sounds like you have what I call 'the feeling of ick' which is when you are reduced to wanting to stay in bed and shut out the world. I hope your mister gets better, food poisoning is nasty stuff. also, I'm not that far away, so if there is anything I can help with, shout!
ReplyDeleteAww mate I'm so sorry you're feeling low. I'm not sure that I can say much to make you feel better, except that - as you can see - we're all thinking about you in our bloggy way :)
ReplyDeleteAnd sometimes a few blog-free days is good for you. Don't worry, we'll all still be here when you're back on your feet!
Big hugs xx
Oh huge huge hug for you (and the old lady too). If it helps, you still do one mean post even when you're feeling rubbish? I hope you get your sparkle back super soon xx
ReplyDeleteThankyou for following my blog. Sorry there hasn't been much on there lately the weeks are passing so quickly. Love all your interesting thoughts and feelings - you're not alone with those and yes little old ladies who have survived the horrors of war can make you cry with their amazing outlook on life, perhaps she could see how you were feeling, that's assuming you're not referring to someone in their 40's LOL. Did you get some great freebies at the British Museum? Apart from the V&A it's my favourite place.
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